We all have our dark sides.
I am guilty of many. Constantly at war within me.
Jealousy. Rage. Hatred. Greed. Vengeful.
Sometimes I just want to give in to them.
Set them free.
Let them loose.
But I know only regret and despair awaits should I let them take over.
And there is no turning back from the repercussion.
So I stare blankly into space.
Emotionless while a turmoil brews inside.
I lie still.
Wandering through mental images of random objects and happy fantasies.
To distract. To escape. To control.
The darkest side of me.
oh joy from 2005 to 2017...
2 days ago