Dark Heart

We all have our dark sides.

I am guilty of many. Constantly at war within me.

Jealousy. Rage. Hatred. Greed. Vengeful.

Sometimes I just want to give in to them.

Set them free.

Let them loose.

But I know only regret and despair awaits should I let them take over.

And there is no turning back from the repercussion.

So I stare blankly into space.

Emotionless while a turmoil brews inside.

I lie still.

Wandering through mental images of random objects and happy fantasies.

To distract. To escape. To control.

The darkest side of me.