Sunday, September 28, 2008

New Found LOVE

my new found love. my students.

lucky i have so many of them, about 80. spend 20 hours with them officially and more hours outside. I need all the love and attention i can get. If only they knew how much they mean to me. Haha. Then again i hope they never find out. Cos then they'd realise how much i need them more than they'll ever need me.

i am blessed. truly i am. Thank u God.

i found my calling, and right now i'm pouring my heart and soul into it (them). Somehow people might warn me not to get too personal. I can't. This is me. This is how i function.

i love what i do. it gives me happiness beyond anything i had so far.

and it definitely helps to heal an injured heart. I am sorry. I don't know how to fix it. It is beyond repair. i tried to mend it. many times. and it gets worse every time.

right now. all i am focusing on is just my love to God. and in that, i try to just do things, everything, every second just for Him. Because He knows, He understands, He sees, He listens and He helps me with each and every thing. He loves me and i intend to love Him as much as i possibly can. All that i have now, all that I am, is all because of Him. All praises are to Allah the Almighty. Ar Rahman Ar Raheem. From him derives all form of knowledge.

He is Bountiful and Rich. Oft Giving, oft Merciful. Yet He is never in need of anything.

I am trying. And i will never stop. So help me God. Show me the straight path. Only thee we worship and Only from thee we seek help.

The One. The Only.

The Everlasting.

The Giver. The Judge.

Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah. La ilaha ilallah. Allahu Akbar.