Time is running out.
Time is flying away.
Time is invisible yet I look at it all the time.
I'm scared of time.
Time makes me fear a lot of things.
I watched the movie In Time a couple of months ago. It was profound in the sense that it literally snapped me out of my mind. I became extra conscious of it. Past, present and future.
In essence, time is not here, but it is the most valuable commodity in the world. But it is not ours to take, or buy or share. It moves constantly without anything affecting it. We can't manipulate it or stop it, no matter how hard we try.
All we can do is use it as it is. For time is fleeting. I regret not using my time in this world as wisely as i should. We are given so much of it, a lifetime in fact, yet it is never enough.
I began timing myself, counting down the minutes to every single thing I do. I have the same amount of time as anyone else in this world. But what do I do with it?
When I started timing myself, I realized how much time I was wasting doing that do not help me better myself. I spend almost a quarter of my day on the internet. Mostly on facebook, youtube or blogs with no real goal or task to achieve. Just browsing through random links. Entertainment, leisure and virtual socializing takes up a bulk of my time.
And the after effect of the internet? It even burrows through my time for my family and myself because my brain and eyes are tired from filtering all the information of which half is crap.
I feel sick to my stomach, thinking of how selfish I am and totally ungrateful of the luxury/nikmat of time that God has given me. I analyzed my time usage and needless to say, it is utterly disappointing. There is so much more in life that is worth my time. So so much more.
Time is more valuable than money. I'm prudent with my money, I should be even more stingy with time. Especially since spent the last 30 years of it just getting by.
So what is worth my time? What is worth yours? That is a different story.
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