Nani has just left for France. For three years. 3 looooooong years. Uhuk uhuk.
Enol’s got a job and getting married next April.
Ina’s getting married end of this year.
Gee and Faz had their first baby.
Pie and Kak Ija got new, higher paying jobs.
Irah has a career and a baby.
Nymph is gone.
I’m still here.
Seems like everyone has moved on or moved ahead.
I’m still here. No job. No money. No one to cuddle with.
I don’t even have a car.
Feel like I’m stuck in a time warp. Everything else around me is moving at the speed of light.
I try so hard to hold on to them, all I grasp are shreds of nothing.
I can see everyone and everything just slip away, I feel the changes, the loss. When a smile is no longer as warm and inviting. When a hug is not as tight as it used to be. When the eye loses the twinkle and the voice loses its song. When you suddenly realize you can’t relate to whatever the other person is saying. Then I know, it is time.
Where am I now? How come I haven’t moved? Why am I still here? What the fish am I doing here? Where is here?
If my physical appearance doesn’t advance, I’m okayla. But everything is sagging and melting in places I didn’t even knew existed. Yeah, that’s where I’m moving, downwards and all around the tummy area. Guess gravity can’t fight time.
Time actually stopped for me and it let me watch everybody pass by in a colourful blur.
Bye bye everyone. I’m still here.
have a grand long weekend!
2 days ago